Who can I talk too?

[mossh]

Without sounding like an emotional wreck?
Everything at home has gon tits up again.
Dads completely off his face and had a fight with my brother. My brother won, but he'd completely snapped and hes turning out to be a person with a temper I don't like very much sometimes.
And if my dad isn't fighting J (my brother) Hes trying to start a fight with me, which he doesn't win either.
I'm fed up of being the strong one who has to comfort my littlest brother whos only 6 and I have to take him away from it all.
Its been like this for 10 years now and I'm beginning to crack.

[racaille]

I'll PM you.

[fimacg]

I wish I could offer some real advice but all I can say is that you are always free to talk to us and big Hugs cominng your way

((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))

[dannyboy]

You seem to be a very strong person Mossh, I'd have cracked a long time ago. I'm not sure who to suggest to speak to but please don't keep it to yourself. We are always here to listen. Big hugs. xxx

[brigadier]

Oh Mossh, stay strong, it may be terrible but you do seem to be coping and take comfort in the way you are handling it. Im glad you are there for your little brother. Ive noticed that Rac has Pmd you, so I would have a good chat with her and if any of us can help we will.

[scattymare]

Mossh echo all above. We are all here if you need us and no one will think you sound like an emotional wreck x

[mossh]

thank you all. Its really nice to know some people are around when most run a mile but I don't blame them for that really.
I'll reply to that PM in a mo, off to town to talk to people and apply for jobs.
Thanks again

[babymare]

mossh darling i dont know how old u r sry but my childhood was the pits - listen to family portrait by pink thats my childhood( the siht of my dads hands round my mums throat is still in head). u sound strong but we all need some one to share these times with - friend , aunt uncle teacher (mine was my pony i) even your doctor will listen and help you and point u to someone just to listen . DO NOT suffer this alone hun. try to back away from arguements - hard but try - and be there for your brother but i can only say again plz plz plz do not suffer this alone - talk to someone. I left a awful relationship recently - i let everything out to my manager and she found me help then when i told friends they found me a place to live and im so happy now - talk talk talk to ppl u trust. I am here to hun xxxxxx

[florence]

I'm afraid I can't really give you any advice either but will be here to listen and not to judge. Bless you for looking after your little brother. Good luck with the job hunting. ((((((((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))))) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[spotti]

Again, not much help on the advice front, but if you need a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear - I'm always here for you sweetie That goes for anyone else too...

[rainbow]

u knw u always have me...

[babymare]

how r u today hun xxxxxx concerned about u hun xxxxx

[dannyboy]

Yeah, me too Mossh - how are you today pet?

[mossh]

Hey. I'm okay-ish.
Things went tits up again but luckily little one was at school. Dad started on us again, shouting swearing, calling us everyname under the sun, drank probably 4 bottles of wine today, Blamd us for depression and basically had a break down. I rang his doctor who said "Okay we'll sort osmhting out"
They rang back, asked to speak to him and askd if he was okay. Of course he said yes and they left it at that. Why ask a mentally ill person if they're okay, and leave it at that!! I know thy can;t force him, but just saying "yes okay, you're fine" when hes consumed that amount of alcohol and is saying things to himself is not really helpful. His anti-depressents aren't working obviously.
In the end my mum came home, h went for her but she got there first and jabbed him with a fork and then kicked him out. He then trid to climb through various windows and over the back gate and the police nearly came out but h wondered off.
But once again, hes now back in the house, passed out somewhere

[florence]

What a terrible time you're having lately and with the crash on top of it all too. Although I don't have experience re the drinking I do have experience of dealing with people who have mental illness. I know how hard it can be to get the treatment l and then to get the right dosage of medication. It's obviously not working for your dad especially as these drugs don't mix with alcohol. Have you or your mum tried making an appointment with his doctor to discuss the situation? Also, it sounds like you do need a break. Would it be possible to stay with your OH for a while? It won't solve the problem but it might give you time to get some strength back.

[ceej]

God Mossh I really feel for you. I grew up with an alcoholic depressive suicidal mum who I looked after as my bother was rebelling violently and it f**king sucks. In the end you have to realise sometimes you just cant help or change things and have to look after yourself. Much easier said than done, but you cant hold everyone up or take responsibility for them.

I do understand what you are going through - PM me if you want hun xx

[babymare]

lovey dont give up harrass the docs and also speak to them about u - please hun speak to womens refugee - not for a place to stay but they helped me so much with advice i know he is your dad but u can not face this alone and they can point u in the direction of help - hun pls i can not say this enough do not face it alone - my mother nag the docs all time before the accepted there was a problem. a break will do u good to get your strneght back- is this poss ? hun where abouts do u live - i am so so worried for u - pls promise me u will seek help plz xxxxxxxxxx

[mossh]

I'm sorting out help now, it took doctors, police and half his family but its getting sorted, but right now I'm done with it all
Spent the wekend at my OH's house so that was a chance to get away and relax and go out for his sisters birthday which was fun.
Got at least 5 days with him at the end of july too, just the two of us so that'll be good.

[florence]

That's great mossh. At last they're listending. Bet you can't wait 'til the end of July.

[babymare]

oh hun so glad u have got help so so glad time at OH will be good anf a break even better - u have been so strong hun u need to take some good "ME" time - just sittting and relaxing. so proud of u hun and keep a smile on face ok hun xx

[mossh]

roll on bloody thursday night!

[florence]

What's happening Thursday? Is that when you're going away?

[mossh]

yeah, thats when I get to go away for week at least.
Been a manic week, he was taken away by police last night and has gone to his parents house.
He became abusive and went for me, Not proud to say this but i got there first, i might be small but apparently i've got a good slap!
In the end he was removed and the lovely police lady came who was at my boyfriends crash lol.
Crisis team came out to him, he needs help obviously but doctors aren't willing too. Think its more than just depression.

[fimacg]

stay strong Mossh, it sounds like at least now he is on the police radar and hopefully some good will come from it, even if its hard at the moment.

We are all here to listen and help in any way we can.

[florence]

Well done, moshh. You have to defend yourself. He desperately needs help and that's what the crisis team are meant for. Please try and put it to the back of your mind and enjoy your well earned break.